The Sun came In and Blessed this Fall

Once again the sun activated the altar in the Faery Cave. It had rained and been cloudy most of the day. I take my commitment to do this work rain or shine so I packed up my back back and headed out to the woods. When I first arrived I instantly noted that the Grandmother Pine had tipped further over. Not knowing if she would block the equinox sun light, I crawled into the cave and added this years offerings. I burned sage. I shared Faery Glenn water. I poured a glass of whiskey. I lit candles and held hands with Himself. I sang songs and read poetry. I gave my beloved gifts and he gave me a stone. We thanked all the Mysterious Ones. At sunset the sun beam burst into the back of the cave and activated the altar. I cried with pure joy. Pure Magick!!! Blessed be! 

Mabon 2014 - 10 year Faery Anniversary

   

Today would be my 10 year anniversary of going to Ireland the first time. Of course I had planned to be in Ireland all this last week. The weather there is rainy. The weather here is to be thunderstorms. Guess this Fall is headed in with the rain either way.
  This afternoon I will head up to Wyoming. Every year I go to my Grandmother tree and the Faery Cave that is hidden there in the rocks. Each year I spend my Faery Wedding Anniversary with my Faery Lover. In 2004 I was re-wed to him and to the land in Sligo Ireland. 
  This year I had tried to plan to be in Ireland this day to celebrate my 10 year anniversary, there on the land of Faery. In the Sligo Glenn. I weep a bit inside to not be there with my love. To not be there where the green is so green that it hurts my eyes.
   I will head up to Wyoming in a few hours. The forecast is thunderstorms. This may be the only year that the Equinox Sun does not burst into the back of the cave and activate my altar. Last year it did right at sunset. I had nearly given up on the clouds. It's always a gamble as I need to hike down out of the wilderness after the sun has set. If I am doing that during thunderstorms tonight? That will be interesting. But alas, I will be at the Faery Portal at sunset. To be with my lover. To give him the gifts I have collected this summer. To read to him some poetry. To sit quietly with my candles. Hopefully there will not be so much rain that it spills down through the cave.
  I am dedicated to be in ritual space each year at this time. To give thanks for Maeve marrying me to the land. Reminding of my eternal pact with my Faery Man. I love  him for all lifetimes. My co-walker. My Lover twin. My connection to my faery past. The green shine that still glows with in me. I will be there at sunset to make astral love to Himself. He adores me. We complete each other in mystical ways that no human lover could attain. Our energy dances through the stars and settles into this green earth. We sing the wind and laugh beneath the waves.
  On this anniversary I give thanks to my tribe for getting me safely to Ireland those 10 years past. So I could be captivated once again by my Faery Man. I live each year for this anniversary and I thank one and all for the opportunity to really LIVE this Mabon day.
Blessed Bee

Perhaps

Part of me is still going to England tomorrow

I should have been traveling to England tomorrow. The Path of Pollen will still be there next year. 2015 = The year of the Chariot for me. 

Finding when it's ready to be found

So the theme of the month is 'finding'. Grace Cooley mentioned to me that often you may just not find something until the time is right. Couldn't find the vitamins sitting right next to my purse, been looking for my hiking shoes for weeks and found them at my Moms on top of a shelf, found a treasure chest at the bottom of a meditation. (That's a story). Now I still am looking for my 'Square'. Hope it shows up. Looking for a Man. He'll come around someday. Looking for the right Job - I believe the universe is getting that ready. Oh, and tomorrow I am going to make contact and call my long lost cousin - Julie Ann Keithly. Not contacted for 40 years! I tracked her down in Tulsa. Crazy doins! 

Super Moon

Blessings La Luna Suprema

Tonight I give thanks to all the hidden ones that have guided me this year as I move towards the Fall Equinox and the season of Harvest. This has been a year of really feeling my humanity. A year of Lovers. A year of shifting, shedding and integration. I am so blessed to have an extended tribe to help me on this busy path that I walk. This year there had been no hiding from life. At Imbolc I activated myself and pretty much asked the universe to bring it on. Believe me it has been brutal at times but the sweetness and extacy has been worth the grief and confusion. I am so completely alive. I am walking my talk and striving to manifest as the amazing woman I set forth to be in this lifetime. I believe my ancestors are proud of me. As a woman I have excelled at sovereignty more than any woman in my lineage. I am an independent and powerful force of nature. I am a Queen that works hard to take care of those people that need my help. I am an activated priestess that is hungry for more knowledge and technique to help heal my fellow kind. My tribe is everything to me. Tonight on this Full Moon I give thanks for everything and everyone that has brought me to this place on my journey. Blessings to you all. 

New client in crisis

I have a new client. Also with a severe head injury and PTSD. I have been on the phone with her for two days as she is in crisis. She will be able to call her doctor tomorrow to get the ongoing professional help she needs. For now I am providing the belief piece, that she will be ok. I am giving her some primary tools to provide her with strength and a wee feeling of some control over what the next few weeks will look like. Life is brutal but certainly navigable when you have a healer on your team. And a friend. 

Sit with it

It is good to take some time and sit with loss, even if it was just the loss of an idea or fantasy.