Hiking Alone

This AM as I laid in bed with a belly ache, I watched an episode of Elvis Costello: Spectacle with. This episode was with President Bill Clinton. They talked mostly about Jazz musicians but touched on issues like Katrina and helping reestablishing the musicians as the heart of the place. Clinton listed 4 things he felt was essential to people with the last one being a sense of being 'Needed'.  I realize that I am lacking in that sense at this place in my life. My job gave me that outlet for being needed. They don't need me anymore. I am alone the majority of the time, I do not have any clients so my sense of purpose as a healer is inactive. I guess as a human 'herd/social' creature - I am cast adrift. I have always 'needed' myself and done well at nurturing myself, I am doing that today. It's weird. I guess most of my life I have avoided situations where 'need' was almost a dirty word, yet now that none is depending on me? At the very least, it is humbling. I think I am someone who 'needs' to work with people on some level. For now I will just keep taking care of myself so I can be a better person to eventually help others and be a great companion to those in my life.