Dream of Drowning

10/6/14 Eve of the Full Moon

Thus will be a Full Moon - Total Lunar Eclipse in Aries. That's hardcore. 

Last night I dreamt I drowned in a river. In the dream I had been outdoors with Sam. I needed to go move my car. It was night. I had no visibility and then there was a car that needed to get around me. I pulled to the left but then my car slid sideways down a Sandy embankment. I slid backwards for hundreds if feet and even tried to jump out. I began to panic that there may be a creek below me. I pulled the car door shut and closed the windows. Sure enough my car and me plunged into a deep fast moving river. I turned off the ignition. I knew I did not have the bravery to try and get out to swim in the dark river. I knew I was going to die. I woke up gasping for breath. As I lay Indy bed alone I began sobbing. Pissed that I was alone. I'm so sick of being alone. Last night I had Finnegan there at my side. I did not feel my Goddess. I did not feel my new man. I felt pitiful and alone. I cried myself to sleep. 

  Tuesday morning: 

Wow... I just got an email from one of my teachers about the 'Underworld Initiation' retreat. So basically my dream last night about drowning? Would sync up with more of a shamans death/initiation. Terrifying of course but gives me perspective on why I was scared. Fear of the loss if control. I have had dreams where I was to die, but my Goddess was with me and I was at peace. Last night I was totally alone. An initiation. Wow. It never surprises me that I begin the work before getting together with the group. It will be glorious to be with my tribe this weekend. Woosh. What a ride!  

Tuesday evening insights:

 The eve of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Aries. It was a shamans death/initiation. This dream I was completely alone. I startled awake and had been so deep that I cried myself back to sleep. Today I have my 'knowing' in place that I have already begun the work of this weekends RJ & Anna retreat 'Underworld Initiation'. I am being stripped of ego and stripped of control. Tis a wild ride already. I look forward to being with my tribe in a few days!!!!

10/6/14 Eve of the Full Moon

Thus will be a Full Moon - Total Lunar Eclipse in Aries. That's hardcore. 

Last night I dreamt I drowned in a river. In the dream I had been outdoors with Sam. I needed to go move my car. It was night. I had no visibility and then there was a car that needed to get around me. I pulled to the left but then my car slid sideways down a Sandy embankment. I slid backwards for hundreds if feet and even tried to jump out. I began to panic that there may be a creek below me. I pulled the car door shut and closed the windows. Sure enough my car and me plunged into a deep fast moving river. I turned off the ignition. I knew I did not have the bravery to try and get out to swim in the dark river. I knew I was going to die. I woke up gasping for breath. As I lay Indy bed alone I began sobbing. Pissed that I was alone. I'm so sick of being alone. Last night I had Finnegan there at my side. I did not feel my Goddess. I did not feel my new man. I felt pitiful and alone. I cried myself to sleep. 

  Tuesday morning: 

Wow... I just got an email from one of my teachers about the 'Underworld Initiation' retreat. So basically my dream last night about drowning? Would sync up with more of a shamans death/initiation. Terrifying of course but gives me perspective on why I was scared. Fear of the loss if control. I have had dreams where I was to die, but my Goddess was with me and I was at peace. Last night I was totally alone. An initiation. Wow. It never surprises me that I begin the work before getting together with the group. It will be glorious to be with my tribe this weekend. Woosh. What a ride!  

Tuesday evening insights:

 The eve of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Aries. It was a shamans death/initiation. This dream I was completely alone. I startled awake and had been so deep that I cried myself back to sleep. Today I have my 'knowing' in place that I have already begun the work of this weekends RJ & Anna retreat 'Underworld Initiation'. I am being stripped of ego and stripped of control. Tis a wild ride already. I look forward to being with my tribe in a few days!!!!